{"id":639,"date":"2010-06-29T00:01:56","date_gmt":"2010-06-29T04:01:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/allaboutmatt.org\/blog\/?p=639"},"modified":"2017-09-13T13:32:05","modified_gmt":"2017-09-13T17:32:05","slug":"back-to-reality","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/allaboutmatt.org\/blog\/back-to-reality\/","title":{"rendered":"Back To Reality"},"content":{"rendered":"

I am sure most of you have heard the phrase, “I got the case of the Mondays.” \u00a0Well today Monday June 28th was a pretty awful Monday. \u00a0There are many factors that contributed to this awful Monday that I will explain. \u00a0The past week and a half I have been on a nice vacation. \u00a0It started with Annie and I going to four shows in a row. \u00a0First, was Railroad Earth on the boat cruise around Manhattan. \u00a0Then followed by three Phish shows, one in Hartford and two in SPAC. \u00a0I won’t talk about RRE here because I think most of you know how I feel about that band. \u00a0All you have to know is that I was on a boat with RRE. \u00a0It was great to see Phish again. \u00a0It has been a year since I have seen them. \u00a0The great thing about Phish these days is that Trey and the boys look extremely <\/em>happy on stage. \u00a0Trey is talking to the crowd and has a huge smile on his face. \u00a0It is truly amazing to see them like this again. \u00a0Highlights from this run are the Tweezer and the entire encore from Hartford. \u00a0The Makisupa Policemen till the end of the set and encore on the second night of SPAC. \u00a0It really shows how much fun Trey is having. \u00a0Now, during this run Annie and I met up with a bunch of other Siena Alumni and of course pictures were being taken. \u00a0My friend Jen wanted to take a picture and I bitched and moaned a little bit. \u00a0Half of my face does not work because the facial nerve was cut during the surgery many months ago. \u00a0I guess you can say I am pretty self-conscious about it. \u00a0I look in the mirror and I don’t really notice any difference, but in pictures it sticks out like a sore thumb. \u00a0I constantly feel that part of my face not moving, so I am always aware of it. \u00a0Anyway, the next day Jen talked to me about if she offended my about taking pictures and of course it doesn’t, but I am just self-aware of it now, so I would rather not be in a pic. \u00a0Jen said the best thing. \u00a0“To me, your just old Matt Sayles, not Matt Sayles with cancer.” \u00a0I really appreciated that Jen. \u00a0It made me realize what you all think. <\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

After the shows, Annie, I, and the whole family went down to Disney World. \u00a0This was the true vacation. \u00a0I could forget about the cancer and just relax and have fun. \u00a0Well, I never actually forget about the cancer, but it did not bother me down there. \u00a0I wasn’t thinking about my next doctors appointment or what is going to happen next. \u00a0One of the craziest things about this cancer is that I feel fine, but I still have it. \u00a0I was walking around all over Disney World back and forth from ride after ride. \u00a0I still have energy to do things. \u00a0I don’t feel like I have cancer. \u00a0The only thing physical thing that reminds me of it is my half working face. \u00a0Well anyway, it was a great trip. \u00a0I got to see my cousins Shannon, Katie, and Stephen. \u00a0(I will make a trip down there soon). \u00a0Overall, Disney World was awesome and I had a great trip.<\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n

Monday! \u00a0Back to reality. \u00a0I got up early to go to work. \u00a0I first stopped at the chiropractor which was much needed since I have had a week and half off. \u00a0It felt real good to be adjusted and I felt like a new man. \u00a0I got to work and work was good. \u00a0The one good thing about starting work is that I am not sitting around doing nothing at my house. \u00a0I am doing something else and takes my mind off of the cancer. \u00a0The one thing that I am having trouble grasping is that I feel like I am back in 3rd grade. \u00a0I am being told what to eat and I am taking all these vitamins and nutrients to fight the cancer. \u00a0I love my mom and I don’t know where I would be right now without her. \u00a0She has been one of the few that has kept me going through this. \u00a0But whenever I am home she is shoving all this shit down my throat and I feel like a 3rd grader. \u00a0I know that all this stuff is going to help me and fight the cancer, but it is so frustrating that I am 25 years old and supposed to be working and making my own decisions and this is where I am in life. \u00a0I feel like I am going backwards and it is never going to end. \u00a0I still look in the mirror and say to myself that I cannot believe that I have cancer. \u00a0Well, anyway, I came home after work and I had to drink these drinks and do all these things. \u00a0I got depressed at home because it is the first day back to reality. \u00a0I have cancer and it isn’t going away right now. \u00a0I have to take all this shit and there is not enough hours in the day to take and its just overwhelming that this is what my life is right now. \u00a0My phone started ringing and I did not know the number. \u00a0I picked up and it was my good friend Ryan Van Cleve. \u00a0I haven’t seen Ryan in about a year, since he joined up with the army. \u00a0We talked for about an hour on the phone and it really changed my spirits. \u00a0 I was so happy to talk to him and it really got me out of my depressive mood. \u00a0If your reading Ryan, THANKS BRO!!!!! <\/span><\/strong><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I am sure most of you have heard the phrase, “I got the case of the Mondays.” \u00a0Well today Monday June 28th was a pretty awful Monday. \u00a0There are many factors that contributed to this awful Monday that I will explain. \u00a0The past week and a half I have been on a nice vacation. \u00a0It […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[47],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-639","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-blog"],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/allaboutmatt.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/639"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/allaboutmatt.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/allaboutmatt.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/allaboutmatt.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/allaboutmatt.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=639"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/allaboutmatt.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/639\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":842,"href":"https:\/\/allaboutmatt.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/639\/revisions\/842"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/allaboutmatt.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=639"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/allaboutmatt.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=639"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/allaboutmatt.org\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=639"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}